Back

After all those months away I finally come back.
This time Katia may come with me if she must.
I brought Lisa too.
Things have changeth!
I am different.
Later this week I will come back and re-introduce myself.
Hopefully I'm not so terrible.

uga uga double uga

Alrighty people I have decided that this blog is boring me.
So I'm going to try out live-journal to see if it's any better.
So for ,the next 3 weeks I'll be writing in http://sunfleurish.livejournal.com/
And luckly you dont have to be a member to leave comments so galya and katia you can go there and tell me what you guys think :)


Tata for now.

Ughx5

I'm in computer class.
I feel like shit.

UGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH.

I'm not even sure why exactly.
But I'm about to explode.
I'll stay in this misery.
This bubble is full of my negative energy.
It might pop.


This is not a very good April Fool's day. I seriously am not enjoying it.


P.S.
Um it should've been longer.
Don't ask.

Um

Galya thanks!
I'm glad you remembered!


Well since today is my anniversary of life I would like to sing a song. But since you people can't exactly hear me I would like to show the lyrics and hopefully you people know the song.

If I fell in love with you,
Would you promise to be true
And help me understand.
Cause i've been in love before
And i've found that love was more,
Than just holding hands.
If I give my heart to you,
I must be sure from the very start
That you would love me more than her.

If I trust in you,
Oh please, don't run and hide.
If I love you to,
Oh please, don't hurt my pride like her,
Cause I couldn't stand the pain.
And i, would be sad if I knew love wasn't made,
So i hope you see,
That i would love to love you.

If I fell in love with you
-beatles.




Ok hell here is another one.




Won't you come see about me?
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby

Tell me your troubles and doubts
Giving me everything inside and out and
Love's strange so real in the dark
Think of the tender things that we were working on

Slow change may pull us apart
When the light gets into your heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

Will you stand above me?
Look my way, never love me
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down

Will you recognise me?
Call my name or walk on by
Rain keeps falling, rain keeps falling
Down, down, down, down

Hey, hey, hey, hey
Ohhhh.....

Don't you try to pretend
It's my feeling we'll win in the end
I won't harm you or touch your defenses
Vanity and security

Don't you forget about me
I'll be alone, dancing you know it baby
Going to take you apart
I'll put us back together at heart, baby

Don't You Forget About Me
Don't Don't Don't Don't
Don't You Forget About Me

As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
As you walk on by
Will you call my name?
When you walk away

Or will you walk away?
Will you walk on by?
Come on - call my name
Will you all my name?

I say :
La la la...
When you walk on by...
And you call my name...

Growl

I'm in computers and I'm thinking about life.
I just want it to be okay.
I know I've said that before but is that too much to ask???
Must I always be in my bubble????

P.S.
Think of Bright Sunshine.
I wish I could help.

Alrighty

So now I'm overly bored and I am currently in computers.

Why must our school require us to take this stupid course????
I can't be the only one who dreads this period.

Well um just for the hell of it, I should mention how beatiful Camilla Belle is in the movie 10,000 b.c.

Here's the proof



sigh.

Here's another one.



Sigh Sigh

Crap

I will just stop.
I will stop looking for something I cant find.


Why should I do this all the time???

It is time for me to give up.
The universe has spoken.

I will end this and I'll stop it all.

Or will the universe just give me a break?
I doubt it.
But I also doubt I'll ever stop hoping for a break.



P.S. I can't wait forever though. I might explode in a few months from all these stupid f*******. (not a curse word, just something I don't want to say right now)

Portraits

So's I bring you pictures.
Today they are all portraits.
It's almost my birthday and someone I adore is coming from Bangkok this weekend.
He can only be here for a day though.
Then he's going to Cali.
He's bringing his Nikon D200.
Amazing camera.
Well anyway, here are the pictures.


OLD by m-ari (Deviant ART)


Utterrable Femininity By Eu-pho-r (Deviant ART)




Photo Number Nine by Me (Webcam)




RGB by tomislav-moze (Deviant ART)

Shoot

I've found my answer.
I'm happy about it.
I think that I didn't notice before.


I like guacamole.




I need to chill.


Maybe the person I'm talking to on the phone right now (hint hint: Only person who reads this aside from Katia) will rethink what she's planning to do.

Dear person,
I can't chill until you tell me that you know where to go. Come here if you want, I won't mind. My parents wont mind, but be prepared to endure random people walking in and out and yelling loud obnioxous yelling.
Just think it through. I'd rather you come here than that other place. But I won't force you.
Do you like guacamole?
Oh and person, please remember that you have it better than most.
Sincerly,
Ballet Slippers
Fellow Blogger and Hostess of Magic.






I'm hungry.

Maybe

I don't exactly hate it that I let this happen.
Why did I just let it go on?
Maybe it was meant to happen?
I'm not sure.
I just think that I should feel stronger about this. But I don't.
I should be fazed by this. People are supposed to be fazed by this!
I think I should give up on trying to be something I'm not.
I'll try not to trick them anymore.
But I programed myself to do those things. I'm not sure I can stop.
But I'm dying to stop.
I wanna forget about the person I'm not meant to be.
You can love me or you can hate me I don't fucking care anymore.
If only it weren't so hard.......

Never!

I will never try looking out again!
Maybe I should just stay in the bubble I created and never leave it.
Why did I have to try?


She can die for all I care.
You can all die.

I'll only miss one person.


Maybe it's better that you all live. I should just stay in my bubble, in an untouchable, hassle-free, lonely world.
It seems better.
Only bad part is that once I'm in there I........

Hola

I found this in photobucket, and I find it hilarious. I saw the SNL episode with Dick in a box. HAHA! Crude yet Hilarious.

Kind of Oblivious to my surroundings.

I've come to notice that I look at everything but never really see things. I've never minded until now.
It seems that maybe I should pay more attention to things that are going on around me.
I've tried.
And unfourtunatley, Nothing worth seeing is going on around me.
But I haven't tried recently.
I should.
Maybe all has changed?
Maybe.


I hope that when I look outside, it'd be less painful than last time.

Computers once more.

Seriously this computer class is horribly boring. So I have come up with making a segment called “The daydreams of a teenage girl in Computer class".
It's not that great of a title but it gets straight to the point.

Today I had a cream cheese sandwich and sprite for breakfast. Which isn't healthy at all but my mind is in a loopy state.
So don't blame me for this daydream.

I'm alone in a forest and I see a lonely squirrel. But it's not just a squirrel..... It is holding a tiny wand. And it seems to be an animagus. Who could it be??? I ask myself. I wonder if I should pull out my own wand and try to kill it. But I feel something drawing me to the squirrel. When I hear it shout “PETRIFICIUS TOTALUS!!"

I fall.

I wake up. I'm not sure where I am or what happened. But I do know that I am safe.


That's all I got for now because I simply cant seem to finish this daydream, and I just need to actually do the work.
HAHA I slay me!

TATA for now:)

Computers again

I am here again and I'mcurrently really overly tired. Why did I just go to sleep early last night??? I think that's what I'll do tonight.
I'm very proud of you Galya! I know you're like the only person who reads this. So I might as well dedicate this entry to you!
You've changed like so much this past year. And i love it. You're way funner. and you finally dont blush when I say vagina (even though I dont say it as much as I used to).
I wonder if in twenty years we'll ook back at this and notice that we've changed even more.
We're not as close as we used to be now, but I still like you : ). Dont doubt that! And I think I had too much icec cream this morning because I'm obviously loopy.
Galya dear, since I'll see you next period, I'll just stop typing this shit and I'll go tell you.
I hope gym isn't so terrible!
You kick arse.
Oh, and we need to make that fake hawaii thingy come true.
Have you aver seen Dick?
The movie, I mean.
See it you might like it.

Computers.

I am currently suffering from High School angst. I hate this class.I'd rather just be somewhere else. So I'll take a few mintues to type my daydream. The teacher is just too boring.

I am in Mars wearing my home planets latest garments. I'm visiting Mars before college for spiritual reasons. And I find Mac and Cheese and Kool Aid for Alana. But as I'm running in my new light weight self I turn and I see all the look a likes of me from myheritage.com chasing me. I need to be saved.I run towards the edge of mars and into a blackhole that takes me to an Alice in Wonderland Paradoy. I die. Of course, I'm not dead. I'm just Mars dead. So I end up back to where I started. Buying food for Alana. And then I get hit on the head by a peeved Martian. I must LEAVE this planet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Daydream over.
I'll just copntiunue doing the Do Now.

My boredom.

My boredom has led my to myheritage.com. And apparently those people think I look like some random celebrities.
These are the Me look a likes.


Ayumi Hamasaki

I dont think I look like her at all.






Kristen Bell

I seriously think that they choose these people completely randomly.




Jessica Alba

I wouldn't mind looking like her, but I don't think I do.






Janeane Garofalo

But I do agree. I may look like this in the future.





Ashton Kutcher
I didn't know I looked like Ashton. I feel a little offended they think I look like a guy.



Michelle Pfeiffer

I really liked her One Fine Day. But that doesn't mean I look like her!!


Claire Danes
I might look like her. A little.





Brendan Fraser
I don't think I look like him buut vanessa used to think he's sexy so I'll take it as a compliment.





Ornella Muti
????????



Heather Locklear
How would anyone think I look like her?




Mai Kuraki
She's really cute. But I don't look like her.





Fukada Kyoko





Fiona Xie



Aya Matsuura
I wouldn't mind looking like her.


Michelle Chia






Julianna Margulies

It's raining

I didn't go to school today. I just didn't want to. And the world knows that I did the right thing, hence the rain. I'll go tomorrow. But I'm bored right now. I might decide to make a hat. OH boredom isn't kind to me! I shall just go!

Ketchup packets.

Why is that they never give you enough?
Or they just give you too much??
Why is it that those things are soo hard to open?
Why doesn't anyone save me from my ketchup packet misery??
For christmas I want a ketchup bottle.

Instant messaging vs. texting

I shall say that this battle is a bit unfair. I will obviously prefer texting because my Instant messaging service is non existent. I have to constantly go to aol.com to be able to IM someone, and I'm tired of it. I really hate it.

I like to text only because the words come out easier when I write them down. And I also like the way my phone sounds when it vibrates. I never seem to say things right. That's probably why I hate to talk. I'd rather just spell things out.

I'm such a practical teenager. But I guess I can't help it.

It's those darn ketchup packets messing with my mind.

Eclipse

Yes! I have seen the eclipse in Conneticut soil. And it was pretty. Except that it took me a while to notice I was looking at an eclipse.



And My dears I did not waste it. I wished on it!
I think I'm the only witch who wishes to the skies.

But why should I be ashamed that I actually thought of it? I hope my wish comes true. I really hope it does.
My beloved aunt wished right beside me. But I doubt her wish is going to come true because she told me what she wished for. She is an older witch though so she has many ways to make it happen.

I wonder if another planet in another galaxy was having a lunar eclipse?
I wonder if people in different dimensions got to see it?

I guess I have to have a talk with an alien. And I'll ask them pleanty of questions that only a witchy earthling will think of.
But for now I shall go and maybe drink a milkshake.

SEE YA!
And Merry Cotton Balls to all!

She's back!

She obviously dedicated this one to me. She is hilarious!

Friend's a genius.

Helloo there, my childhood friend Vanessa. Makes these awesome video blogs. And she is soo flippin hilarious! So I'm gonna be posting them here you can also view them in her myspace blog. Ask if you have any questions.




She is flippin hilarious. And I love her completely.


And all she does is simply act. She's an actress.

ACROSS THE UNIVERSE.

I am completely and utterly in love with the movie Across the Universe. If you havent seen it see it. I beg you. It's cute, colorful, psychedelic, and very interesting.




Watch it. Appreciate it. Remember the good ole' days with protests and acid. The beatles rocked and so does this movie.

For now

Galya and I are going to do a joint blog about discrimination.

But for now I shall I write what I think about time.

I think time is an idiotic concept. Not that I don't believe in internal time. But the whole idea of years, months, clocks, and age is idiotic to me. I don't think that a simple number can tell people how mature I am.

I live in New York City and all I see is people in a hurry to get to places and they all seem so afraid of being late.

I hate living in this conventional world where people are expected to follow all these rules of order.

Why should I be at a place, at a certain time, if my soul is telling me to go somewhere else?

I believe in free will. And these structural things are messing up my mellow. Darn society today!

I think people are in such a hurry all the time. I think that if the concept of time wasn't out there we'd probably be happy folk. All this time all this stress!

In many other countries people live without such a structural life and are very happy indeed. 

But for some reason I figure that I will probably just deal with these idiocities until I'm 21 (and I'll probably forget about my age and birthday after that) then I will hopefully join the peace corps or something and I'll help people and distract myself from the structures of society in America.

Just ask if you have any questions on my "Time" views. 

Friendship and Music

Magic is not just an unproven thing to me. It's more than that. It's more of a feeling. A weird yet terribly awesome feeling of everything that's mixed in me. Then it all explodes in a psychedelic yet terrific way, making something out of nothing. That's my magic! I told you Galya I'm a witch!

I'm a total Witch.

I wish I never loose my powers. I want to hold on to them. I want them to stay with me forever. I'm not sure I can be me without them.


It's like music or something that plays in my head all day and doesn't let me sleep at night. My magic has a mind of it's own.


Now I wonder. Does everyone have magic? Or is it just me and other witches and wizards?
Or is it simpy that I read too much Harry Potter?


I might be crazy. Simply derranged or maybe I just had too much coffee today.
Let me sleep and I'll probably dream of better entries for my Cotton Balls.

But for now I give you PICTURES!

Maturity and Cotton Candy

Today I will introduce myself!

If I can choose one word that should have a picture of me when you look it up in the dictionary it will be ABNORMAL! And this will be the picture:

Ha! Anyway I am a pretty simple girl even though I do contradict myself all the time and I hate to talk. Hate it! But I adoure to listen. Even though Galya accusses me of not listening to her on the phone. But Galya dear I do listen! 

I'm a fifteen year old girl with the maturity level of a seven year old. Can you blame me?

For some reason I could never really introduce myself without a proper list of things I like.

So here we go!

1.I like listening to Music all the time. Everyone in mi famiglia can sing except moi. I sound horrible. But I can't help it. Everyday in Earth Science people in the hall can listen to my voz. Some may cringe but that won't stop me! 

2.I love cotton candy. Not for the flavour or the sugerness but simply because it melts right when I touch it with my tongue. Who ever came up with it is SIMPLY INGENIOUS!

3.Dance! Oh baby how I adoure the art of DANCE! I can't last a day without dancing. Even a simple wiggle here and there turns my whole day tickle me pink!

4.I love ice cream., I know every litttle kid says that but I do! It makes me feel happy inside.

5.The rain is beautiful and a precious gift from the earth. When it rains I feel calm and oddly enough I always have good luck when it rains. 

I'm going to go and eat a lollapolooza! See ya!

Cotton Balls's first.

Hey there. I am not new to blogspot, but I do want to start fresh. 

All I have to say is welcome dears! My beloved readers!! (Or shall I just say Hola Galya. hehe)

I'm mostly going to focus on writing what my little mind wants to. As Galya knows I am very opinionated and oddly random. And hopefully more readers will soon find this out. 

Wouldn't it be pretty kewl if everyone danced when it rained so that it'd be like an awesome musical??

 ~~~~~~The rain starts~~~~~~

People run out of houses. They all look at the sky. Nature gives us music. Everyone feels the vibrations of the earth. Humanity unites in dance! Jete, Jete. Passe, Passe. 

Doesn't that sound beautiful?