Maybe

I don't exactly hate it that I let this happen.
Why did I just let it go on?
Maybe it was meant to happen?
I'm not sure.
I just think that I should feel stronger about this. But I don't.
I should be fazed by this. People are supposed to be fazed by this!
I think I should give up on trying to be something I'm not.
I'll try not to trick them anymore.
But I programed myself to do those things. I'm not sure I can stop.
But I'm dying to stop.
I wanna forget about the person I'm not meant to be.
You can love me or you can hate me I don't fucking care anymore.
If only it weren't so hard.......